It wasn't the time yet..

..to have another baby.

OK, where should I begin now..

I had a miscarriage on August 15th. I was excited to see two lines on my pregnancy test on July. Mr.M and I have always wanted more than one kid (still don't know how many more though. We are still on different opinions about the number) and I was thrilled that I finally get to experience pregnancy once more.

Soon as I had the result, I started to browse about English speaking doctors and hospital in Seoul. It was not easy to go to a hospital doctor here, you have to book at least a week before the appointment. I even got suggested to book a month in advance from a hospital in Gangnam! Desperately wanted to give the good news to our families in Indonesia, I decided to go to a hospital near Itaewon who accepted my booking a day before appointment.

I had the ultrasound, but the doctor said she couldn't see the sac. She told me to had my blood tested, it showed that I was pregnant but she wasn't sure and she asked me to come see her again in two days time.

I tried to see another doctor for second opinion, he said he didn't see a heartbeat. It was probably because it was still too immature, he said.

Long story short, in about two weeks I was back and forth to the hospital. Had several blood tests until one time doctor asked me to do that again, I felt frustration rushing in my blood and I just cried. Heavily. In the waiting room. It was weekday and Mr.M was supposed to accompany me to the doctor but he couldn't make it in time from the office (he came after I finished crying) so I was just there with Andra in the stroller.

The doctor suggested curettage but I wanted to wait. She gave me a pill to exuviate the fetus.

A day before I take the pill, the fetus came out.

It was weekend and three of us were going to Starbucks and I cried in the ladies room, realizing that it was really the fetus coming out. I was sad that I wasn't going to be pregnant for real, I was sorry for Andra that I'd been telling him that he was going to have a baby sister/brother. But part of me was glad that I wasn't the one that made the fetus out. I would never forgive myself if I did a mistake that made us loose someone we were suppose to have.

Mr.M and I don't have any family member who ever had a miscarriage,  and so i never thought that I would experience that. It was such a shock for us but we are going to get through it.

Been a long time, isn't it?

I miss blogging!

Really, there are so many things I want to write for the past couple of months but the laziness just wouldn't go.

I will update soon!

Weekend #13 : Abiko Curry, Hongdae

Okay, so this is a really late post. Like, 2 weeks late post, but I'm gonna post it anyway because we were impressed with this restaurant.

I never thought I would find a nice curry house here in Seoul. Don't get me wrong, but Japanese food seemed a bit rare here, the restaurants are dominated with Korean specialities.

Curry is one of my and Mr. M favorite foods in common. And it's not a long list, we are in different paths when it comes to food most of the time.

When we caught this restaurant in the corner of Hongdae mall, we instantly agreed to have our lunch there. I gotta tell you, I had some pretty good feeling about the restaurant. But it doesn't matter, since most of the time I was completely wrong.

First impression, very lovely interiors. It was warm and saying outloud "we're Japanese!". Look at some of the evidences.

Manga figures

More Manga figures

Second, they have an English speaking waiter! Yaayy.. I could ask whatever I didn't understand on the menu, what they were contain of, how spicy was "spicy", etc.

Four steps in ordering :
1. Pick your carb. There were plain white rice, hayashi rice (hashed beef and rice), and udon.
2. Pick your protein. There were chicken, beef, pork, shrimp, etc.
3. Select the level of spiciness. Mr. M decided to go with "Spicy" and I tried the "Extra Spicy"
4. Add additional deep fried for topping, such as fish cutlet, beef, chicken, etc.

So, I ordered beef curry over white rice with addition of fried chicken and Mr. M ordered Chicken curry over white rice with chicken katsu and vegetable croquette. Our curries comes with two bowls of miso shiru, scallions, and fried garlic. Andra got rice, fish cutlet, and miso shiru.

Yes we took some time to take pics while waiting for our foods to come

My curry turned out to be too spicy for me even though I didn't feel it at first bites. I ended up having watery eyes while finish it up but I really enjoyed it. It was warm and full of flavor. The fried chicken, we really liked it! It was that crispy-on-the-outside-and-tender-in-the-inside kinda thing. Andra also enjoyed his fish cutlet and miso shiru so much.

For sure we are coming back to Abiko Curry, but next time I would have my curry just in "Spicy" stage.